wait wait i just realized that as much as lucrecia’s talk with merle and her “grape juice” joke was funny in that one lunar interlude, how much of her drinking might have been a small coping mechanism to see her family and have to pretend they were total strangers and oh, gosh, i’m finding pain in small things what is this what’s happening

thatgirlonstage:

I think a lot about Lucretia having her family there but not really there. I think it was still probably better than when she was truly ALONE, but… Well. She had Davenport by her side, but he was always running at, like, 3% capacity. She didn’t REALLY have Davenport, just a sweet little man who looked like him and helped her out.

So then she gets Tres Horny Boys back and she probably though it would be so much better, that even if she couldn’t tell them everything she’d be with some of her family again, and while that’s true to an extent, they’re still different than what she remembered.

Magnus is no longer the overenthusiastic collective little brother, he’s a man in his 30s who’s Seen Some Shit and lost his wife and his mentor and his town and become an adventurer because he lost his entire family. And until she tells them about Wonderland, he doesn’t even understand how close they are in age. Merle became a damn father and then ran out on his kids because of marital issues and a fear of responsibility. Merle, the same guy who died fifty-seven times trying to carry the weight of their mission to stop the Hunger on his back. And Taako… do I even need to say anything about Taako?

You know how sometimes you accidentally make a joke in the wrong company? Like you have an inside joke with your friends and then you say it in front of a different friend and they just kind of stare at you blankly because they have no idea what you’re on about? How many times must Lucretia have said something or almost said something and then realized wait, they won’t understand this? This is a reference to something Lup used to do, this is a joke about Cycle 33, this is something Magnus used to do but I don’t know if he does it anymore. How many times did she have to bite her tongue or walk away or take a drink because she couldn’t say what she was thinking?